Shine's Thyme

Daily ramblings of a ridiculously happy housewife and mother. Come in and see how sweet life can be!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Rested thoughts

Guess what girls? I'm at the beach!!!! When we arrived here I was virtually in a comatose state. Isn't it interesting how the world can beat you down? I have always been a very optimistic person, choosing to see the good and positive in all situations. I still feel optimistic, but the older I get, I am afraid I feel I am just getting down right weary. At this point in life, I can see the end of the tunnel. Not that the tunnel has been terrible, it has just been very long. At 52 years old....perhaps I just need more breaks...more rests. This one has done me a WORLD of good.
I feel light and refreshed. My mind is beginning to be at peace. I have time to be in His word and ponder on things my mind usually just pushes to the dark corners. I am so thankful for all God has given me. While pondering here I asked myself..."what is the difference between me and so many others..?" I see families splitting apart left and right. Mothers leaving, fathers many children left behind with no choice. My marriage has never been an easy one. I love my husband with all my heart, but even so, hard times have been at my back door many times. Many times I have wanted to run be "at peace" even if it meant being alone. The way I dealt with those thoughts however, I believe, has been the reason I am in the "minority". Number one, I seek His answer daily. I will not give in to what my "self" wants today. I am always seeking, and will not be satisfied, until I am quite certain, that I am doing the best I can for Him....even if it's not what I think is the best for me. In the end though, He always knows best, and He always protects me with His sovereignty. Also, I choose to believe that rather than giving in to the thoughts of "I deserve better", I pray to ever believe that "I have so much more than I could ever deserve". 

Today is a lovely day. I have a beautiful family with good health. We have managed to stay afloat financially despite this crazy economy. God is good sisters. When you can't be certain of your own feelings, your own Him and He WILL help you through always.
I am getting ready to celebrate my 29th anniversary. Not with the perfect man, but with the man God gave me, the man that is just right for me:) Have a blessed day girls!
Much love, Shine


Sherry said...

What a beautiful place to rest! I get weary too. Nothing is perfect and I run myself at both ends! Take time to yourself and rest. I recently was in the hospital overnight and I slept for over 12 hours and every time I looked up at the clock I rolled back over and thought vacation! Terrible isn't it to be so tired out by your family all you can imagine while in the hospital is that it is a vacation. LOL But, I love them almost too much, tires me out!

Kristin said...

Thank you for sharing.
Love, Kristin

Anonymous said...

Wow, the pictures from your beach posts are absolutely beautiful. They make me want to pack our bags & head out to the coast forever. They need to be framed! I mean really... just looking at them induces an instant relaxed & positive disposition. *swwwoooooon*

Love, Manda<3

Deborah said...

Shine, your heart has blessed me
more than you know this day.
Bless you sweet, sweet friend

In His love,
Deborah xoxoxoxo