Rested thoughts

Guess what girls? I'm at the beach!!!! When we arrived here I was virtually in a comatose state. Isn't it interesting how the world can beat you down? I have always been a very optimistic person, choosing to see the good and positive in all situations. I still feel optimistic, but the older I get, I am afraid I feel I am just getting down right weary. At this point in life, I can see the end of the tunnel. Not that the tunnel has been terrible, it has just been very long. At 52 years old....perhaps I just need more breaks...more rests. This one has done me a WORLD of good.

I feel light and refreshed. My mind is beginning to be at peace. I have time to be in His word and ponder on things my mind usually just pushes to the dark corners. I am so thankful for all God has given me. While pondering here I asked myself..."what is the difference between me and so many others..?" I see families splitting apart left and right. Mothers leaving, fathers leaving....so many children left behind with no choice. My marriage has never been an easy one. I love my husband with all my heart, but even so, hard times have been at my back door many times. Many times I have wanted to run away.....to be "at peace" even if it meant being alone. The way I dealt with those thoughts however, I believe, has been the reason I am in the "minority". Number one, I seek His answer daily. I will not give in to what my "self" wants today. I am always seeking, and will not be satisfied, until I am quite certain, that I am doing the best I can for Him....even if it's not what I think is the best for me. In the end though, He always knows best, and He always protects me with His sovereignty. Also, I choose to believe that rather than giving in to the thoughts of "I deserve better", I pray to ever believe that "I have so much more than I could ever deserve". 

Today is a lovely day. I have a beautiful family with good health. We have managed to stay afloat financially despite this crazy economy. God is good sisters. When you can't be certain of your own feelings, your own heart....seek Him and He WILL help you through always.
I am getting ready to celebrate my 29th anniversary. Not with the perfect man, but with the man God gave me, the man that is just right for me:) Have a blessed day girls!
Much love, Shine